Goodbye

dear you,

this will be the last time you will ever
hear from me.
I decided to stop chasing you.
Not because I'm tired,
but because I've been chasing around
and you're not even letting me catch you.
Don't wait for me anymore,
I'm not coming there already.
I've made another plan for my life
and I decided to go after my father(real).
I don't know when i can come back here
but whenever it is,
i also won't expect if i will ever see you again.
Thanks for everything that you taught me,
and for all the memories that we had when i was there for 2 weeks,
it's been the most memorable and longest days of my life.
I will never forget you
and the love that we've shared even for a short period of time.
And even for a short period of time,
it was the Best love i ever had in my entire life.

if it's not too much to ask,
please don't sleep 4am everynight;
please be cautious of your cough coz its not good just taking it for granted;
please fold your clothes properly,don't just throw it anywhere in your room;
please don't always eat chicken, consider veges too.
please sweep your floor once in a while,not once a month ok?
please find a job that you like best too.
And please please be a good boy ok.

anyway,

I hope you will soon find what you're looking for in your life
and will struggle your life together with her everyday.
I hope she will make you happy.

i hope you can explain smoothly to grandpa and dad
about what happened to us.


i will miss you forever :(

i hate saying goodbye.
so...
ill stop it here.

I Love You Goodbye

Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

Nurse Me

the one you needed most to cure your pain, is the one that is hard to find....

The Replay

i dont know why i keep listening to chinese songs esp. when im sad and before i go to sleep. I dont know why i feel better listening to the kind of music i dont even understand a word. All i remmber is it all began when i feel inlove with this chinese guy.

You're like a song i wana replay.

Nothing hurts more than realizing he means everything to you, but you mean nothing to him.

everything will work out perfectly, and if it doesnt, its not over yet.

You Took My Heart Away

hai i can't eat.
can't sleep.
i need to fake my laugh
either my smile.
hai since you started to act like this
and when u decided to be with your own
it's like you took my heart with you! :(
(sigh)

If Only You'd Let Me

I love you and I will tell you everyday, Everyday until you forget those things that hurt. I hate the things that make you hurt And how I wish I could take them away. If only it could be done, I'll do it for sure. "...but it cannot be done coz you won't let me do it.."

The Repeat

I SAID I LOVE YOU!

Realize

Never take someone for granted.
maybe by now they are always there doing
ordinary things again and again and sometimes it doesn't make sense.
but you'll never know the importance of that person
until they choose to leave and you realized how badly you missed that person..
and all that non-sense things that s/he used to do.
for s/he is the only one who can turn ordinary into something special..

If there's a way, I want you back

if you were used to do things with someone especially those closest to your heart, its just natural to miss them if you already doing the same things alone.

Dead Rose

they say the only way to fall out of love
is to fall in love with somebody else
BUT ITS WRONG
IT'S PLAIN WRONG.

for me.

i really do LOVE THE PERSON
and there is NO WAY THAT I WILL FALL OUT OF IT
coz i KNOW i would never find SOMEBODY ELSE(LIKE HIM)
TO FALL IN LOVE with.

coz im really sure that HE IS THE ONE FOR ME
and f he's gone then what's my tomorrow for?
IM NOT THE ONE FOR HIM.

i will stay SINGLE forever because i LOVE him.

IM SORRY FOR LOVING YOU

ohhhhh myyyyyy goooood...
now i realize..
that's why THEY never had the EFFORT
to scold me, teach me,
told me
on how LAZY i am
how CHILDISH i am
how STUPID and CARELESS i am
and just give me what i need
and make life easy for me
coz THEY dont fuckin CARE about me at all
THEY dont give a damn about me at all
THEY only see a plain child
a plain girl not so important to them

I REALIZE THAT THEY NEVER REALLY LOVED ME.


then you came to me as a SURPRISE
and made me see
how HARD trully LIFE has to be
made me realize what I AM capable of as a person
made me realize how childish and irresponsible i am
in everything
and how lazy i was and i am now
made me realize i can be a better person and the BEST
that i can be.
YOU HAD THE EFFORT TO REALLY LET ME KNOW(everyday)
AND THAT YOU REALLY HAVE THAT MUCH LOVE FOR ME.

but then, i fucked up.
YOU ARE VERY OPPOSITE FROM WHO I AM
but then you loved me.

and all i can do is offer each day
TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU, SO YOU WILL
HAVE A BETTER LIFE EVERYDAY WITHOUT ME :(

YES I CAN SAY I'LL BE A BETTER PERSON(for you)
but EVERYDAY i am hurting you with all the part of who i was.

I AM HURTING NOW
TOMORROW
AND THE NEXT DAY OF MY SURVIVAL(without you)
but if it is the only way to give you a better life
THEN I AM HAPPY BEING HURT THIS WAY.

I HOPE I HAVE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE
AND GAVE YOU THE BETTER LIFE THAT YOU NEED.



i'm sorry for loving you.

What's Happening

i want to stay strong..
even though i know its falling apart :(

My Christmas Wish

i don't care about the presents
Underneath the christmas tree
Make my wish come true
All i want for christmas is you.

You may think she's strong and happy
without you.
but you don't know the half of it.
Each day she cries & thinks
about suicide.
HOW'S THAT FOR STRONG & HAPPY?

Fear Inside

I'm afraid after all this waiting,
he'll end up with another girl.
I'm afraid of what has'nt happened yet,
and most of all,
I'm afraid I'll never find someone
who could compare to him.

Slow Down

slow down boy your not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

The Question

I don't know what to do now that we're apart

Vulnerable

I wish I had the guts
to walk away from what we had.
But I can't...
Because I know you wouldn't come after me
and that's what hurts the most.

Please Stay

i love you so much.
and it's breaking my heart
coz you're trying to escape in it.