IM SORRY FOR LOVING YOU

ohhhhh myyyyyy goooood...
now i realize..
that's why THEY never had the EFFORT
to scold me, teach me,
told me
on how LAZY i am
how CHILDISH i am
how STUPID and CARELESS i am
and just give me what i need
and make life easy for me
coz THEY dont fuckin CARE about me at all
THEY dont give a damn about me at all
THEY only see a plain child
a plain girl not so important to them

I REALIZE THAT THEY NEVER REALLY LOVED ME.


then you came to me as a SURPRISE
and made me see
how HARD trully LIFE has to be
made me realize what I AM capable of as a person
made me realize how childish and irresponsible i am
in everything
and how lazy i was and i am now
made me realize i can be a better person and the BEST
that i can be.
YOU HAD THE EFFORT TO REALLY LET ME KNOW(everyday)
AND THAT YOU REALLY HAVE THAT MUCH LOVE FOR ME.

but then, i fucked up.
YOU ARE VERY OPPOSITE FROM WHO I AM
but then you loved me.

and all i can do is offer each day
TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU, SO YOU WILL
HAVE A BETTER LIFE EVERYDAY WITHOUT ME :(

YES I CAN SAY I'LL BE A BETTER PERSON(for you)
but EVERYDAY i am hurting you with all the part of who i was.

I AM HURTING NOW
TOMORROW
AND THE NEXT DAY OF MY SURVIVAL(without you)
but if it is the only way to give you a better life
THEN I AM HAPPY BEING HURT THIS WAY.

I HOPE I HAVE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE
AND GAVE YOU THE BETTER LIFE THAT YOU NEED.



i'm sorry for loving you.