Dead Rose

they say the only way to fall out of love
is to fall in love with somebody else
BUT ITS WRONG
IT'S PLAIN WRONG.

for me.

i really do LOVE THE PERSON
and there is NO WAY THAT I WILL FALL OUT OF IT
coz i KNOW i would never find SOMEBODY ELSE(LIKE HIM)
TO FALL IN LOVE with.

coz im really sure that HE IS THE ONE FOR ME
and f he's gone then what's my tomorrow for?
IM NOT THE ONE FOR HIM.

i will stay SINGLE forever because i LOVE him.

IM SORRY FOR LOVING YOU

ohhhhh myyyyyy goooood...
now i realize..
that's why THEY never had the EFFORT
to scold me, teach me,
told me
on how LAZY i am
how CHILDISH i am
how STUPID and CARELESS i am
and just give me what i need
and make life easy for me
coz THEY dont fuckin CARE about me at all
THEY dont give a damn about me at all
THEY only see a plain child
a plain girl not so important to them

I REALIZE THAT THEY NEVER REALLY LOVED ME.


then you came to me as a SURPRISE
and made me see
how HARD trully LIFE has to be
made me realize what I AM capable of as a person
made me realize how childish and irresponsible i am
in everything
and how lazy i was and i am now
made me realize i can be a better person and the BEST
that i can be.
YOU HAD THE EFFORT TO REALLY LET ME KNOW(everyday)
AND THAT YOU REALLY HAVE THAT MUCH LOVE FOR ME.

but then, i fucked up.
YOU ARE VERY OPPOSITE FROM WHO I AM
but then you loved me.

and all i can do is offer each day
TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU, SO YOU WILL
HAVE A BETTER LIFE EVERYDAY WITHOUT ME :(

YES I CAN SAY I'LL BE A BETTER PERSON(for you)
but EVERYDAY i am hurting you with all the part of who i was.

I AM HURTING NOW
TOMORROW
AND THE NEXT DAY OF MY SURVIVAL(without you)
but if it is the only way to give you a better life
THEN I AM HAPPY BEING HURT THIS WAY.

I HOPE I HAVE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE
AND GAVE YOU THE BETTER LIFE THAT YOU NEED.



i'm sorry for loving you.

What's Happening

i want to stay strong..
even though i know its falling apart :(

My Christmas Wish

i don't care about the presents
Underneath the christmas tree
Make my wish come true
All i want for christmas is you.

You may think she's strong and happy
without you.
but you don't know the half of it.
Each day she cries & thinks
about suicide.
HOW'S THAT FOR STRONG & HAPPY?

Fear Inside

I'm afraid after all this waiting,
he'll end up with another girl.
I'm afraid of what has'nt happened yet,
and most of all,
I'm afraid I'll never find someone
who could compare to him.

Slow Down

slow down boy your not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

The Question

I don't know what to do now that we're apart

Vulnerable

I wish I had the guts
to walk away from what we had.
But I can't...
Because I know you wouldn't come after me
and that's what hurts the most.

Please Stay

i love you so much.
and it's breaking my heart
coz you're trying to escape in it.

Fireworks turns to Lighting

I hear fireworks.
dogs are barking.
people are sneaking out the window.
everyone is going out to watch the magical show.

Fireworks has always been my favorite.
and now, it was just like any ordinary night.
its just like i just hear but never listen.
and i don't feel like watching.

The Future Holds

"Love gives pain whenever your beloved is in pain or suffering. Love ensures that you will suffer as much or maybe more when your beloved is suffering just because you cannot do anything to ease out the pain and the emotional turbulence your beloved is going through."

How will i ease the pain?
If I'm the reason why he is hurting.
All i can do is change.
But he's too tired to wait.

I'm sorry my love,
i hope someday i will find you waiting for me.
i will come back to you as the person you wish me to be.

I love you so much.
And i always will.

911

If you really know how i felt,
you'd call an ambulance.

Nightmares are Back

In this midst of sadness
i still hope for a better tomorrow.

or

tomorrow will be another day and
today was just a nightmare.

Maximum Certainty

Love hurts so much that at times it leaves you in depth of sadness which is certainly larger than the high of happiness it gave you.

Dark Night

I sit and stare out the window
the twilight is covering the earth.
its a very beautiful reality in earth everyone can see,
yet,it has been the saddest to me.

Now i see storm instead of night sky.
i see crows instead of love birds.
i see cloud of mistakes instead of cloud nine.
i feel so dark in this magical world we call Earth.

I'm holding my shovel
and starting to dig
my own grave.

'Coz nothing will ever be the same magical to me
in this world,
now,
because you're gone.

Findings

I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I love at home to be alone
and I tried and found
out this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you.

I'd Rather

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

Bad Decision

Don't make a decision in the grip of anger,
i tell you, it's BAD decision.
Just think it over and the next day,
then you make your decision.

The Compromise

I don't know who went wrong.
I don't know whether its you or me.
I don't know who's gonna be the first to compromise.
I don't know if you're still holding on to me now.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry.
I dont know whether to live or die.

All i know is it would still be us.
And It has to be.

Let's Get Real

No one gets me like you do.
and..
No one gets you like i do!

You're my M.V.P.

I value myself as much as you value me.
So don't ever think i am that cheap
to anybody else.
I'm priceless as you are to me.

No one else can afford me.
And you also is not affordable for everybody.

I hate to make myself believe
that i value you alot and then someone will just be
interested of you and want some taste.

Same to you,
now we know we think the same and
i believe we can get away with this.

Self-Love Vs. True Love

when you were out there happy
did you ever noe i was sad?
coz u never thought of it
as much as enjoying your time.

when i was out happy
u told me u are sad.
coz ur thinking of how much you love urself
rather than thinking of how much love u have for me.

you are too scared of getting yourself hurt
rather than realizing how much i love you
and can never betray you.

if everyday u don't know how i love you
and how i value our relationship
then everyday we are dying.
and i am just waiting in vain.

I Mean It

I'm already fair to you by being honest.

The Fear

I don't want anyone else to realize how amazing you are.

i don't want anyone else to know how you cared.

i don't want anyone else to have you.

i don't want anyone else to take my place.

Understand & Believe

There is nothing stronger than true love.
You must believe to understand,
and you must understand to believe.
If you don't believe, you can't understand, and,
if you don't understand, you can't believe.

Value of it All

And you learn that love, true love, Always has joys and sorrow, Seems ever present,
Yet is never quite the same, Becoming more than love and less than love,
So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, You really can endure,
That you really are strong,
That you do have value.

My Christmas Wish

YOU.

Holding On

You never failed to amaze me
on how strong you are
to fight for me
and never give up on me
no matter how many times Ive pretend to let u go
you always know how i always needed you.

I just awarded myself
as the Luckiest girl in this planet
to have someone v Best.

I have no reasons to let you go.
If i failed,
I will surely kill myself.

I Love You My Way

Just because someone doesnt love you in the way you want them to,
doesnt mean that they dont love you with all theyve got.

This is for You

"nunan neomu yeppeoseo.."
just when I thought I could go
my heart is lost and you're pulling me back again
wishing on a falling star
wish I could be where you are
somehow you came and changed my everything

*when you're not around
I just feel a little down
this is kinda silly right... it's not okay to me
and I think I'm gonna hate it boy
if you turn your back on me
I don't wanna let this go ...but I'm wondering*

how do I be careful
not to show you what I dream of
kinda crazy but I
replay replay replay
when we're together
every moment that I treasure
like a movie that I
replay replay replay

you know you're my M.V.P., no one else has got what I need
when it's just us two, I get shy but then you keep it so cool
the way you're always watching out for me
and although I wanna believe
tell me I'm not just imagining..

*repeat*

"nunan neomu yeppeo"
I don't wanna hear it no more
cause I know it's gonna
replay replay replay
keep trying not to fake it
how am I supposed to say it
you're the song that I
replay replay replay

Sealed it with Love

"The one you always wanted
is the one you can never have."

Best ones are rare to find
if you're lucky to have it
never let go of it.
You can never see that one kind
everyday in your life.

- BEST LESSON IVE EVER LEARNED

Unwillingness

Then you made yourself hate me
so i could unwillingly say LEAVE ME.
And i was so hurt that I thought
this might let you feel better.

So don't ever think this was my own choice,
you made me do it...

and so i said it(LEAVE ME)

and i stayed

and waited.

and waiting...

The Way to Death

Ive asked you to leave
Yet im holding onto your shirt.

Ive asked you to leave
to see if i could pull u back

Ive asked you to leave
if u would really go away
and never look back.

Ive asked you to leave.

and u did.

When its Enough

There's not enough soil in the earth for how deep I want to be buried.
There's not enough water in the oceans for how slowly I want to sink.
There's not enough fire in the sun for how brightly I want to burn.
There aren't enough words in my head to say all the things I can't.
There's not enough blood in my body for all I need to bleed.
There's aren't enough couches in the world for how long I want to sleep.
There's not enough life in me, for all I want to live.
All I've had enough of, is you.

Im Stupid But I'll Try

I won't compose prose every morning you open your eyes next to me (I won't compare you to a summer's day).

I won't kiss the tears from your cheeks whenever you cry.

I won't remember every appointment.

I won't keep the sheen on my armour.

I won't know what to say sometimes.

I won't get your order right.

I'll be late.

I'll fuck-up.

But I'll write something for you when you least expect it (in summer or winter).

But I'll hold you as tight as I can whenever I can.

But I'll burst through the door as soon as I remember.

But I'll polish it until it shines again.

But I'll say something anyway.

But I'll go back and make it right.

But I'll get there.

But I'll try.

Wizard of Oz

I know I have a heart because
I can feel it breaking...